Thursday, September 30, 2010

Dream Honeymoon fashion board

Dream Honeymoon

Hey guys! I have been daydreaming about our honeymoon all day! I thought I would show you a verson of the look I am hoping for, just for funnzies! I love It's so much fun! You can make so many different boards and it's so inspiring! True Love for the fashion lovers out there. I hope you're all having a great thursday!
Love and Hugs

P.S. I first heard about Polyvore from Khali over at Boots and CatEyes. She's so cool!

Dream Honeymoon by SentimentalSuitcase on

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

So what!?!? Have you ever done the same thing?

Yesterday I witnessed myself emotionally eating. I always wondered what people meant when they said that phrase and obviously I had been doing it for years but never knew. I thought it was one of those buzz words that Oprah invented that would be here and gone in a few years.
But then. Vince and I had been working on adopting a precious 8 week old puppy we planned on calling Sunni. Yesterday I got word from my landlord that there was no way I could have a pet in the house. I felt so mad and sad, close to the same feeling as the miscarraige last Feb. And so I drank wine and ate cheese, in the early afternoon. Classic! I said well this is something I CAN control and basically, fuck it! I knew I was emotional eating but I did it anyways.
The thing is I didn't go over my points for the day or derail my diet or anything but I finally figured out that I do do that. And I need to find other ways to make myself feel better for the next time. I hope I have the strenght to turn to meditation next time. Because there will always be a next time! ;-)
The present moment is inevitable!
Love and Hugs

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Guess who's 29 today?

It's my beautiful friend Amberlie!
My little fiesty Libra always making sure things are leveled and fair. She is sensitve and overly emotional! I love that about her. She never holds back and feels everything so deeply. She also has impeccable taste in design, food, wine and everything else! We share a deep love for Paris, when I tell her that walking the back streets of Paris makes me feel so heartbroken with love she really knows that exact feeling.
She's an amazing mother and wife always putting her families happiness first. She is spiritual and shares a birthday with Confucius. She can be found praying and meditating.
But most of all she's mine and she loves me back! I am so lucky to have found you Amberlie! You are much loved and I hope you have the birthday of your dreams!
Love and Hugs.
P.S. See you in Paris! ;-)

Monday, September 27, 2010

Inkie the Stinky

A.K.A Princess Monkey or just plain old Inkie. She is a sweet little doggie that we go to babysit last weekend! We had so much fun and got waaaay too attached to her in 2 short days. She is four months old and belongs to Vince's co-worker Kevin. They went to England for the weekend and asked if we would mind watching her. No problemo whatsoever! Now we are in deep discussions about adopting our own little one. Watch this space for more on the subject!
Love and Hugs!
I love Doggies!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Dinner last night

Good Morning everybody! Last night we went out for a nice dinner to celebrate our 4 year anniversary. It was so lovely. I love taking time to eat and talk and drink prosecco with Vincent. He is such a wonderful partner and every day I feel grateful for him.
The staff at the resto were so nice as they surprised us with a complimentary off the menu dessert including "Happy 4th Anniversary" scrolled in chocolate! So yummy and sweet!
It was such a romantic and magical night!
Love and Hugs

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

4 years ago......

......I met my Fiancé! My soul mate and my very best friend! Happy Anniversary sweetie love pie! 4 years feels like 4 mins! It's gone by so fast and full of ups and downs and absolutely perfect in every way. I am the luckiest woman alive! Every morning I wake up with you I am as excited as a school girl. I can't wait to spend another day with you doing anything and nothing as long as I am right there beside you.
I can't wait to marry you and be your wife!
Love and Hugs

Friday, September 17, 2010

"Yep, still fat!" The mystery of Phatom fat.

“We become numb to how mean we’re being to ourselves,” Ressler says.

Even though Kellylyn Hicks has lost about 85 pounds over the last year and a half, and gone from a size 24 to a tiny size 4, she still worries she won't fit into chairs.

While out shopping, she fears that she’ll bump her hip into a shelf and break something. A few years ago when she was heavier, she accidentally knocked over and broke a wolf figurine and had to pay $60 for it.

And every morning when she looks in the mirror while getting ready for the day, she sees her former, heavier self. “My brain says, ‘Yep, still fat.’”

“It's been really hard to change my self-image,” says Hicks, 37, of Chesapeake, Va. “I still feel like I'm this enormous person who takes up tons of space.”

While many people are thrilled when they lose excess weight, not everyone is as happy as they expected to be — or as society assumes they surely must be.

Body-image experts say it’s not uncommon for people, especially women, who have lost a lot of weight to be disappointed to some extent to discover that they still aren’t “perfect.” The excess fat is gone when they reach their goal weight, but they may have sagging skin, cellulite or a body shape that they still deem undesirable. Like Hicks, some even continue to see themselves as though they are overweight.

Some specialists use the term “phantom fat” to refer to this phenomenon of feeling fat and unacceptable after weight loss.

“People who were formerly overweight often still carry that internal image, perception, with them,” says Elayne Daniels, a psychologist in Canton, Mass., who specializes in body-image issues. “They literally feel as if they’re in a large body still.”

Daniels and other experts suspect this may happen because the brain hasn’t “caught up” with the new, leaner body, particularly for people who were obese for many years and then experienced rapid weight loss.

“Body image is a lot harder to change than the actual physical body is,” Daniels says.

'Waiting for the other shoe to drop'
Another contributing factor, especially for yo-yo dieters, can be fear of regaining the weight, says Joshua Hrabosky, a psychologist at Rhode Island Hospital who studies body image and counsels obese people undergoing bariatric surgery.

“They’re still in the back of their minds maybe waiting for the other shoe to drop,” he says. People who’ve gained and lost and gained again may be less likely to embrace a new image that they worry won’t last.

Still focused on the fat

Though she’s lost 50 pounds, Nell Bradley, 25, of Atlanta, says she’s more weight-conscious now than five years ago when she weighed 200 pounds.

“I’m so afraid of being that size again,” says Bradley, who exercises three to four times a week and watches her diet to keep her weight in check. She’d like to lose about 10 more pounds.

Even five years later, she still hasn’t shaken the image of her heavier self. “Now I’m down to 155 to 160 and I still feel like I'm at the weight that I was before,” she says. “It's weird because sometimes I'll shop and immediately look for clothes in my size when I was nearly 200 pounds. I always have problems seeing myself in the mirror or in pictures.”

Experts say part of the problem in our body-obsessed culture is that many women — and increasingly more men — have highly unrealistic expectations of what weight loss can do for them. Too often, they think hitting their ideal weight will make them look like a swimsuit model in a magazine, and they’re disappointed when that’s not the case.

People who expect perfection can “get stuck in dichotomous thinking that you’re fat or you’re perfect, and there’s no gray area in between,” says psychologist Leslie Heinberg, who counsels bariatric patients at the Cleveland Clinic. “So if you’re not perfect, you’re ‘fat.’”

'Blind spot' about own body
Heinberg says a lot of her patients who’ve lost large amounts of weight know they have a “blind spot” when it comes to their new body, so they really have to work at believing they look the way others see them.

“It can take years after surgery, after losing weight, for people to really buy that,” she says.

Think of getting a dramatically different hairdo and then doing a double-take upon seeing your reflection in a store window, Heinberg says. “Losing 80 pounds is much more of a cognitive shift than getting new highlights,” she explains.

Counseling may involve challenging distorted ways of thinking about one’s appearance (by studying before-and-after photos, for instance, or bringing out the “fat pants” and seeing the difference in the mirror), learning how to think about oneself in a more positive manner, and working to engage in activities one’s been avoiding.

“You have to look at retraining your brain and understanding that you have been reinforcing this negative image for probably a long time,” says Adrienne Ressler, a body-image specialist and national training director for the Renfrew Center Foundation, which has several eating disorder-treatment facilities around the country.

“We become numb to how mean we’re being to ourselves,” Ressler says.

“We need to learn to appreciate our bodies,” she says. “If we could all look in the mirror and say, ‘Hello, Gorgeous!’ I just think the world would be a better place for women.”

© 2010

From this article

30 Day Shred is Done and Done!

Good Morning Every body! Here are my final stats:

weight- 215.6 pounds Final- 209.9 pounds
bust- 47 inches Final- 45inches
waist- 40 inches Final- 36.5inches
hips-46 inches Final- 44inches
thighs-24 inches Final- 22.5inches
dress size- 16 Final- 16/14

For the frenchies:
poids- 98 kgs Fini- 95.4 kgs
poitrine- 119 cms Fini- 114.5cms
taille-102 cms Fini- 93cms
hanches- 117 cms Fini- 112.5cms
cuisses- 61.5 cms Fini- 58cms
taille- 46 Fini-46/44

Yesterday was my last Shred day! Thank goodness, It was so hard. I missed one day and had to make up for it and extend it to 31 days. I am really pleased with the results! What do you think? Can you tell a difference from the first picture? I lost a total of 5.7 pounds and 9 inches! Whooohooooo! Also the best part is that I am so strong! I can do a push up now! A real one not a knee girl one. It's so hard but I can make it. I have found muscles on my body I never knew existed and Jillian certainly pushed me to places I never thought I could go. I think that's what is the best. She kept telling me that you have no idea how strong your body really is until you try. And boy do I believe her now! I feel amazing!
Love and Hugs

Thursday, September 16, 2010

We're coming to the end!

Alrighty kids today is my last day of the 30 day Shred with Jillian Micheals! Tomorrow I will post my results. It's been hard but I feel stronger than I have ever felt and man that's a great feeling. What are you guys doing to stay healthy?
Love and Hugs

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

"Wouldn't ya like a little ice cream?" A Love Story.

Oh my gosh I can't stand this its so amazing. I am a slobering blubbery mess right now! You absolutely have have have to watch this!
Love and Hugs

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Wedding Dinner tasting!

Today we went to the Corinthia Hotel in Attard to taste the food and wine for our wedding. Here in Malta each venue comes with an asigned caterer and not the other way around. So we loved the venue but would we love their food?
The answer is YES! It's great! We had a starter and then risotto and then our main with was a beautiful white fillet of Cerna and then just for Sue a heavenly bannoffe pie!
Yahoo! It's a go! Expect those save the dates in the mail mid October!
Love and Hugs

Monday, September 13, 2010

Whooohoooo today is Sue's birthday!

Check it out homies! It's Budha SueSue's b-day today! 29 short years ago the prettiest little baby was born and taken home to live and grow up in Lemington, Ontario. I count my lucky stars that she made it to N.S. and into my life. I would be no where without the strength and steadfast loyalty that my best friend has shown me. I love you so much girl! You are so perfect and special to me and I hope you have a fab day doing everything you love to do!
Love and Hugs

Friday, September 10, 2010

My two favourite dudes!

Ryan and his famous one armed picture taking.
I miss you Ryan! I love you Vince!
I love you Ryan! When are you coming home for dinner Vince?
Just sayin'

Love and Hugs

Can silk flowers be pretty too?

Well what do you think? Are silk flowers having a comeback moment? I saw these over at Junebugweddings and I kinda love them! But not as much as I love YOU! ;-)
Love and Hugs

Vince's tie!!

And this is the tie Vince wants for the wedding. It was inspired from Snipet and Ink's board. I found it on Jpressonline.
Love and Hugs

Nathalie's bridesmaid dress!!

And this is Nat's dress! They are all wearing dresses from JCrew. Britt and Nat are wearing their dress in dove grey silk tricotine and Delph is wearing pale pink silk chiffon! We are going to ask Ryan to wear a pale pink tie! Oh my gosh can you feel the excitment?!! My bridesmaids are going to be smokin' hot!! I can't wait to see them all together! Ohhhh and I am going to post a pic of Vince's wedding tie too!
Love and Hugs

Delphine's bridesmaid dress!!

This is her dress but not this colour
It's more of a soft pink like the one above
Here is the front view on the model
And the back view on the model

Isn't it pretty? next up Nat's dress!
Love and Hugs

Thursday, September 9, 2010

If Tony can do it I can too!

Good Morning everybody! I just got done reading Tony's story at That'sFit. He's just amazing! He did this all on his own while counting calories, food journaling and exercising. He says that he eats what he wants just uses a fork instead of a shovel now! He said when he started walking he couldn't even make it around the block.
I only have 54 more pounds to lose. I look at my stomach every once and a while and even though I know it's changing it's still the big apple shape I have lived with and loathed all my life. I feel like I work out so hard! I often do Jillan's Shred in the morning than another aerobic video in the afternoon. And I still feel like this belly will never budge. But look at Tony. He is a clear example that eating healthy portions and moving your body more works. I just have to keep this up.
If Tony can find the strength and will to lose 229 pounds I can surely find the determination to lose 54 and really believe in it.
If you want to read Tony's personal blog on his continuing weight loss you can find it here.
Love and Hugs

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Thinking necklaces....

.....with Britt's dress. I love something vintage and chunky around her neck with this dress. What do you think? These pretty ladies are from the imensly talented Elva Fields. Love Love Love!!!
Love and Hugs

Britt's Bridesmaid Dress!

Good Morning Guys! Oh my gosh I am so excited! Britt ordered her dress for the wedding! She picked this gorgeous silk tricotine anouk dress from JCrew in "light pewter". Oh my gosh we can't wait to accessorize it! What do you think? Isn't she going to look like a goddess floating down the aisle?!! I love her in grey! Okay calm down. Time to look at shoes and necklaces!
Love and Hugs

Monday, September 6, 2010

We have a new comrade on our Weight Loss adventure!

Our newest member the blubbly gorgeous Aunt Jane. (here she is excited to board a plane to Paris, October 2009) I just can't stand that smile!!!!!
And of course the pillars of strength Mom and Dad! (here they are having a lovely walk through the Rodin Gardens in Paris, October 2009)
And then there is me, the overexcited health and fitness website junkie! (here I am at my heaviest in India, October 2008)

Good Morning Everybody! It is with great excitment that I introduce you to the newest member of our Weight Watchers online group! She is the pretty woman in the first picture above, the lovely Aunt Jane Taverner! (FYI she also answers to the name Aunt Pain.)
We have a total of over 300 hundred pounds to lose between the 4 of us and I have no doubt in my mind we will do it!
Does anyone else want to join our group? I am thinking of a name.....I like The FatBlasters! What do you think?
Love and Hugs!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Do-able wedding hair?

GoodMorning sleepyheads! This is the hair look I am going for at my wedding. What do you think? I am not hiring a hairdresser. I always feel like they make brides look unlike themselves. I want to look like myself only way better. So do you think Me and Mom and Britt can achive this look for me on my wedding day? Gosh I hope so.