Be- 31 weeks pregnant

Hi guys! Here's the belly on our 1st wedding anniversary last friday all dressed up for dinner. She cleans up well don't cha think? ;)

What's been happening in the last little bit:

-We just moved into our new place and got internet finally so I am back in the loop my friends! Also means lots of house projects are on the go and needed to get completed before the butterball arrives. And at 7months pregnant that can be friggin exhausting. Good thing I've got a great team of Husband, Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister in law, nephew and doggie to help out.
- Being pregnant during Ontario summer heat waves is making me seriously begging the baby to come early. Not too early but earlier you know what I mean girls? I'm eating 14 popsicles a day at this point. Where's my good ole fashioned Nova Scotian non-summer when I need it!
- Got a proper pregnancy pillow called the Leachco Snoogle. Whatever dumb name, the thing works! However Vince is less than impressed, he said I whacked him in the head with it yesterday in the middle of the night. HA!
-Listening to my birth affirmations on repeat these days. My favs are, "My mind and body are calm" (yeah right!) & "I put all fear aside as I prepare for the birth of my baby" (Geeze I wish!) & "I surrender my birthing to my body and my baby" (What the?!) . We'll see how well those work when I am in over controller/panic stricken lady mode! Hoping for a miricale over here!

Love and Hugs my dearest friends! I miss and love you deeply!

Be- 26 weeks pregnant

Sorry for the late post you guys. I'm not loving this picture and have been trying in vain to get another one done but real life is getting in the way. Anyways it's not that bad if I don't blow it up to big on the screen! ;) (Holy boobies!)

I'm feeling extra preggo over here and it's sorta gross but mostly awesome. I can feel the baby moving quite a lot but that also means I feel her putting pressure on organs in there which is umcomfortable. I have also noticed walking is becoming a problem in the last few days. I feel like my tank is almost empty you know what I mean?

Other than that and a weird burning sesation in my lower uterus everything is great. Saw the midwife yesterday and she listened to the heartbeat with a fetoscope and said the babe has a fast strong heart! My blood pressure is excellent and I am getting closer and closer to having a home birth. Whoohooo!

Now I just need a new bra/underware, my blonde hair back and I will be in tip top shape! 

Love and Hugs

Be- 24 weeks pregnant

We're doing it guys! We made it to 24 weeks already! Did you know this means that the baby is viable? She can now survive outside the womb if delivered prematurely. Of course I seriously hope she stays in there and makes it to full term but after having a miscarriage in the past this comes as really comforting news.

I think I told you that I didn't feel the baby move for a long long time. Then she started moving big time.....and then she stopped, along with my heart. (I was so freaked out!) Thank goodness she started again a few days ago. I think maybe she just swam into the back where I couldn't feel her anymore?

I find my belly shape really changes, some days I feel huge and then somedays I feel scared I am too small. I think it has to do with her movements in there and I am trying to relax about it! Good luck with that!

She is also developing her taste buds this week so I am eating all kids of blue cheese, weird veggies, grains, a few ounces of rosé wine and even some green algae for good measure. Although it seems the only things she likes or jumps for are sweets. On the weekend we had a picnic in Niagara and the baby kicked for the delicious strawberry rhubabrd pie! What are you gonna do? The girl likes what the girls likes. ;)

Bring on the pie!

Love and Hugs

Be- 22 Weeks pregnant

So here it is the Bump I am always convinced is not growing! ;) A few things that have been happening in the last 2 weeks:

1:She moved! Finally! Made me wait till 2 days ago that little bugger but yes I am sure she is alive and kicking in there.
2:Aparently she only moves for chocolate and beer (had 3 non-alcohlic beers and she kicked up a storm). Not a good sign.
3:We have officially entered the extremly baffling world of new baby stuff consumers. The choice and price of gadgets out there you just need to have for a newborn is outrageous, and overwhellming.
4: Names are being narrowed down. A few we like are Gemma, Lucia (Lucie), Sawyer, Millicent, Andie, Aura and Axelle, I wonder which one we're gonna pick!

That's it folks. I am off to work and thankful that it will be over at the end of this month so I can get back to concentrating on my favourite people, YOU!

Love and Hugs

Be- Everything

What are you doing right now that you're good at? Are you doing it will love and passion and a little bit of fear in your heart? I hope to goodness I can be just like Erma.....

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Look up and ask, what am I meant to be doing? What does my soul want from me. Am I hiding and how can I come out from under the blanket?!

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Love and Hugs

Be- My friend?

Aren't friends awesome? I miss mine. Especially after I watched this funny video found on A Cup of Jo. Check it out:



How cute are they?

And where are my girls anyways?! I miss you ladies! You rock and I love you eventhough we are far apart. Hey! wanna get together on skype and watch episodes of Downton Abbey at the same time with wine and everything? :)

Love and Hugs

Be- Worry free

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I want to be like this lady, footloose and fancy free dancing in the sunset feeling great and worry free.

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Unfortunately I'm going on week 3 without a job and getting a little freaked out. And to tell you the truth the task of not worrying has always been a big one for me. 

What about you? Do you worry or let it all slide off your back?

And do you have a job for me? ;)

Love and Hugs

Be- Fearless

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HAHA! Isn't this funny?! Aren't we all waiting for a sign? I know I am, at all times. I've applied to probably 12 jobs in the last week and a half and not one called me back. WTF! You know what I have to do right?! Get out there and pound the pavement and sell myself. I wish that excited my soul but to tell the truth I'm terrified.

But if there was ever a sign to get off my ass, THIS IS IT!

What about you guys? Do you need a sign? Will this one do?

Love and Hugs

Be- But how?

Oh man really?! Why can't everything be easy peasey around here anyways?

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I joined OA a month ago when I got home in Canada. Don't get me wrong I truly love it and am so greatful for the people and the organization and the rooms but sometimes I would just rather eat my face off you know? 

But I guess like they say above, sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. And boy is that true for me right now. 

What about you? 

Be- Greatful....but why?

Perhaps simply because you can open your eyes?



Or turn on your tap and choose between hot and cold water?


How beautiful a thought is that? I need this so much right now, Christmas always gets me so wonky and I would rather be greatful. It just feels so much better.

Do you agree?

Love and Hugs

Be- Good

Today was bad and I am willfully pushing for good. Actually I have honestly felt more bad feelings in the past few weeks than good and it's so strange. Life is awesome, I've got a job, I moved back to Canada, I live with my brother and sister in law. Things are great so I just need to see these things more clearly than the bad ones.

Do you guys ever feel like this? What do you do to lift the funk and remind yourself of how good you've got it?


Love and Hugs

Be- Quiet

I need this more than ever this week. Just because people are enticing me into arguments doesn't mean I have to engage. I don't want to fight and so I won't.

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Because what other people say and think belongs to them not me. My heart is good and loving and I would like to keep it that way.

This is what I am struggling with being today. What about you? Please tell me I'm not alone.

Love and Hugs

Be- an incense expert

I use incense when I meditate. I love it and have been using it for years. It's wonderful for relaxing your mind and helping you focus on your awareness. Have you ever been in the store staring at the many scents and wondered what the difference was between them?

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Well apparently certain incense when used like aromatheraphy can alter your mood and in turn help heal your mind. Every scent has a corresponding association such as:

Lavendar - meditation/physic awareness
Eucalyptus, Frankincense- communitcation, intuition
Chamomile- calm, soothing
Peppermint, Rosemary- emotional healing, good luck
Musk, Patchouli- passion, sexuality
Tuberose- chakra balancing, highest consciousness
Lemon- awareness, power
Sandalwood, Rose- enlightenment, spirituality
Ylang Ylang- inspiration, self love
Ceaderwood, Pine- courage, protection
Jasmine- love, intuition
Clove- energy, grounding

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Or you could just burn it cause it smells good! My Mom always tells me a funny story of burning some in her bedroom in the 60's and my Grandma freaking out thinking it was pot! Oh the 60's!!!

Love and Hugs 

Be- Panic Free

My parents will be here in 72 hours! I'm so excited!!! I can't wait to hug them and and just been in their lovely presence.

I'm also a little anixous because it means I'm leaving and will be getting on a plane for 8+ hours.

I had my first panic attack at 19 years old and haven't looked back. It's changed and can take on different faces such as fear of leaving the house to fear of speaking in front of strangers to fear of fear. Recently though the toughest has been a fear of flying.

I'm scared I will have a panic attack on the airplane and get up and scream and try to open the door (I'm been flying since I was little I know how to open that door!)  and freak everyone out and the pilot will have to make an emergency landing. Will I get arrested? Probably! And what's that gonna cost anyways like 10,00000 dollars? Will I punch the Flight Attendant if she doesn't let me out? AHHHHHHHHHHH! I start to feel so out of control and claustrophobic!
So I have been taking charge and doing what I can to help myself. This means meditation, EFT, pranic healing and scouring Youtube for helpful clips like this one:



and this one too:



The idea of confronting my panic and aniexty and asking for more has never occured to me and scares the shit out of me at the same time. I am usually just working at making it go away RIGHT NOW! But I can really see what's behind it and want to give a try.

Do you have panic attacks or aniexty or excessive worry? What do you do to help yourself? Please feel free to talk to me about it if you want, I am a completly judgement free safe sounding board.

Love and Hugs

Be- Go Nuts!

How are you celebrating today? What did you do (however small) that makes you happy? What brings a smile to your face?

It's a sticky question isn't it? I think most of us have been taught not to be too show off-y. Don't bring attention to your self or even, don't look too happy.

Well I want you to know that here in this space please feel free to go nuts! Let it all out, if you're alone shout out how awesome you are! If you are in public go ahead smile to your self and say, "way to go self, you are super amazing" and by the way "Holy crap that presentation you made was kick ass", or "geeze how great was it when you went for a walk after work yesterday" or "hell ya I'm so cool for starting my own business" or "awesome job getting to work on time this morning!" or in my case, "Sam you are so amazing for only having one portion of apple cake last night and being happy and full."

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Because honestly our negativity is the only thing holding us back from what our heart knows we deserve.

So go ahead and be crazy, congratulate yourself and maybe even do a little celebration dance. Seriously what are we doing here anyways? Aren't we supposed to be having a little fun?

Love and Hugs

Be- Happy Calm and Productive

Good morning you guys! Did you start you day off right with a small 30 second or even bigger 5 min meditation? Or maybe you woke up feeling refreshed after meditating before you fell asleep last night?

If not, what's holding you back? Don't know how to do it or why it's so good for you? I found this little video that I thought you might like to watch. It's How To Meditate by the guys at Howcast.



What did you think? Pretty simple and easy right? I love to hear if you tried it, even if you hated it. I'd also love to see you keep trying, cause you know what can happen? This:

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Whoa hey? Did you know that you have a higher self? That you are connected to every single being in this world? That you actually love yourself? It's all in there. All you need to do to find it is close your eyes, focus on your breathing and leave the world behind for a moment.

The benefits of meditation are:

On your body:
Lowered blood pressure
Reduces anxiety attacks by lowering the levels of blood lactate.
Decreases muscle tension
Enhances the immune system
Drop in cholesterol levels, lowers risk of cardiovascular disease.
Higher levels of DHEAS (Dehydroepiandrosterone)
harmonizes our endocrine system
relaxes our nervous system
produce lasting beneficial changes in brain electrical activity

On your mind:
Increases serotonin level, influences mood and behaviour.
Clear calm mind for greater productivity
Develops intuition
Increased brain wave coherence.
Improved learning ability and memory
Helps in quitting smoking, alcohol, food addiction
Reduces road rage
Decreased tendency to worry
Increases listening skills and empathy
Helps make more accurate judgements
Gives composure to act in considered & constructive ways

On your heart:
Provides peace of mind, happiness
Helps you discover your purpose
Increased acceptance of oneself
helps learn forgiveness
Creates a deeper relationship with your God
Attain enlightenment
Helps living in the present moment
Creates a widening, deepening capacity for love
Discovery of the power and consciousness beyond the ego
Experience a sense of “Oneness”
Increases the synchronicity in your life



And it's FREE!!!!

Love and Hugs

Be Monday- You are more than you know

 "Why do you think you are a small star when the whole universe is inside you?"
~Sidi al-Jamal

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You may have gone futher away from it. You might hate yourself, say mean things all day long and think you are good for nothing. Maybe it goes something like this, "URGH! I didn't return that email fast enough, why can't I ever do anything on time OR I can never get a healthy dinner on the table for my family OR I still haven't lost those freaking last 15 pounds OR Of course I didn't get called to that meeting, I'm not smart enough anyways and don't have the same degree as that other guy."
Listen that doesn't matter. You deep down under all that is a perfect loving being and there is no escaping it. You can lose you way but it is always there waiting patiently for your return. 


If you have trouble letting go (some people like to punish themselves and think they deserve it so letting go can be too hard and I complelely understand and stuggle with this all the time too.) then try this: Close your eyes and visualize putting that to the side. You didn't let it go, it's okay it's just up there over to the side. Now look in the middle closer, deeper inside yourself. There it is! The loving perfect being you are, full of potential and love. Your best friend who is ALWAYS on your side. Now just rest here for a moment and appreciate it and maybe even smile a little bit?


Then take back the things you didn't want to let go and open your eyes and go about your day. But keep coming back to that 30 seconds of being your true self as often as you can. 


And tell me what happens.




Love and Hugs

Be Monday- Live the life you've always imagined

"Worrying is using your imagination to create something you don't want"

- Esther Abraham-Hicks

So why not use your imagination to create something you do want. What would you do or say if you were living the life you always wanted? The one that's completely positive and free from worry? What's the big deal anyways, leave the crappy stuff in the past and move on with a smile and a hope. You'll be surprised at what happens next, gosh you might just smile like never before! Or end up looking like this Doggie, he looks like he's having a good time doesn't he?

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But seriously just fake it until you make it. Think you are happy and then you will be, I promise. If you don't believe me maybe Henry Ford can convince you?

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Wednesday is a new moon. It's a great time when everything and everyone is conspiring to help you start over and rise to another level. So make some positive happy plans. Stop worrying and use your imagination for good instead of evil.

What do you want out of your life? Tell me tell me do!

Love and Hugs

Be Monday- Do you want to be yourself? Do you want to be true?

Life is hard. We are being dragged in every direction before we even get out of bed. Not very often do we get these sweet moments where we feel really true to our selves. You know the feeling, that euphoric light love feeling where you are just completely.....happy.



Unfortunately as we get older we often lose sight of that person and that feeling. The good news is it's never gone and if you want you can have it back as often as possible. It's very important to tap into this as often as possible. This is the secret of truly happy and successful people. You will be a better wife, husband, mother, friend, daughter, niece, neighbour, coworker..etc.
So how do you do it?

There are a number of ways and it will vary from person to person. I find meditation helps, Florence Welsch suggests you dance the devil off your back, and visulization can also help. But take it slow, there is no room for being hard on yourself here. That's conteractive.

So if you want to try you can simply close your eyes for a moment and breathe. Consciously follow your breath down to your belly and back up and think of one of the happiest moments in your life. The birth of your daughter? That moment at the cottage last summer when you woke up early and went out to the dock and really felt the morning, the evening your husband proposed, that time you stepped off the plane in a foreign country and felt this is it.

This seriously only takes maybe 30 seconds. You can pause and do this in the lineup at the grocery store. Or in the washroom after you wash your hands before you come back out or even right before you fall asleep.

Soon you will see this changes such as easier smiles, a happier heart, becoming more understanding and more yourself! (and don't get too excited now but you will also start to crave more!) Pausing will become wonderfully addictive. You will take the time to love yourself and then the skys the limit to your happiness!

So come on people "stop dragging that horse around!"

Please please please let me know if you tried this or what you think of it! I am dying to know!


Love and Hugs


P.S Thanks so much to Becky at Disasterous Jane for sharing this music video! It is so inspiring and beautiful!

Be Monday- Let go of it

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.

There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. 

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

- Marianne Williamson, is a best-selling author and speaker.

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So go ahead! Why not take a chance and act from the perfect loving place in your heart. What happens will always be right. And then you might finally let go of your fear and unhappiness and come into the world you always knew was there.

Love and Hugs